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Name: shara
Metro: Dallas
Interests: I love Jesus and I desire to spend my life working in Africa among the oppressed-primarily the women and children. I hope to be His hands and feet through ministering to their physical needs as I share the HOPE I've found! Come join me!
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11/4/2003
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| so, as you can tell i never blog on this site anymore...i've been won over by myspace sadly!
things are going well since i last blogged. i stay really busy with school, work and hanging out with my boyfriend but i can't complain too much! if you want to know more about how i am and what i'm doing check me out on myspace!
http://www.myspace.com/plantedbystreams
shara
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| Wow, this week was kinda crazy! Something the Lord is wanting to teach me is how to rest! What a hard lesson at times....lol! I have a new friend who the Lord is using to teach me how to let down the walls I've built to protect myself and teaching me to just relax and stop making things so complicated! It's such a blessing to have someone who is willing to walk with me and see me healed in some of these "areas" and to just be more real.
With that said, I tried something new this week by allowing a guy at work who likes me, to get to know me more. The Lord knew what I needed right now and He knew how to set things up in order for me to let my walls down and let someone get close enough to know me. It was a hard week of dealing with fear and insecurity and just making things way to complicated but the Lord has been so faithful to just whisper in my ear "it's going to be ok" and "keep it simple". I'm trying my best to not worry about tomorrow and to enjoy today. Pray that I'll continue to take steps toward being free from the past and that I'll leave all my baggage behind and start over. | | |
| The other day I found a "new" favorite song by JoJo called "too little, too late". I love it! It has a great sound and great lyrics. Anyways, today I woke up feeling sad and depressed for no apparent reason and I tried desperately to figure out what was going on in my heart. I generally feel this way off and on and I know that there's a lot of pain still in my heart that I haven't been able to really deal with and get healing and maybe some of it happened in Africa. I don't know...I just want to cry sometimes and grieve but I don't know why or what about. Pray that I'll find a couselor who will not just minister to my heart, but to my soul as well.
So, this song has been ministering to me and one thing that I've realized is that in some way I can relate to the lyrics because of my pain. In the chorus she sings: "It's just a little too late, a little too wrong and I can't wait..." and it's that part that sings to my heart. It's like my heart is saying to all the hurtful things that I've seen and experienced as well as the pain others have caused me...'what happened, happened and the damage has been done and there's nothing you can do about it so go on and leave me alone and stop hurting me'!
Oh Jesus, set me heart free to sing!!! Heal the deep wounds of my heart that hold me back from loving you wholly and completely. How long does grieving last!!! | | |
| On Friday I stopped to get gas before going out of town. I normally pay at the pump and this day was no different. I normally slide my card then put it in my pocket while I fill up. I made my way down to E.Texas (a 2 hour drive) and it wasn't until 8 pm that evening that I noticed my card was missing. I searched all over for it but couldn't find it. I should have called my bank at that point but I've had my account frozen before and I didn't want my funds frozen if I had simply misplaced my card. The next morning I went online to check my account and I found that I had a balance of -$900 overdrawn! Crap...someone really did get a hold of my card! I called and reported my card stolen and although they froze my card, I still couldn't file a report until today (when everything finally posted). When I looked at my account this morning I saw that I was no longer sitting at -$900 overdrawn, but -$1500! How do people get away with this!!! I had over $2000 stolen...only half of that really mine. In addition I had $500 in overdraw charges! I should get all my money back in about a week. So, wanna know where they spent my money? 5 purchases at Target in just a span of a few hours...with every purchase being about $200 something. And then they went to Home Depot, got something to eat and went to the gas station about 3 times! I wanna find a lost card!!! If it's that simple to spend someone else's money without getting caught...why isn't everyone doing it? | | |
| Ok, so I'm walking to class and I see this guy on his cell phone texting someone. I notice what he's wearing and that he's sorta skinny when all of a sudden he looks up and says: "hi, i'm Philip". Weird. I keep walking and I hear him turn around and say "hey, are you doing anything on Friday"? I keep on walking...ignoring him and wanting so badly to turn around and say 'you're real insecure aren't you? you don't know me from adam and yet you look up for a second and have the nerve to ask me out without even knowing my name or getting to know me. Wow, don't I feel special!' But of course....I don't say anything and then I hear him say "well fine then". What is that? Guys are so weird...sure I'm sure he thought I was beautiful or something but the fact that he kept on walking after telling me his name and then had the nerve to push the envelope while asking me to my back whether I wanted to go out with him is just weird. Maybe I shouldn't have turned down poor Julio...who at least got to know me better before asking me out. ;) Can't live with them, can't live without them. | | |
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